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Cake day: June 17th, 2023

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  • I’m actually enjoying our conversation and I think our missunderstanding is just a minor one. I never said I don’t have any ambition. You asked me about my ambition or lack thereof, so I described what’s driving me.

    Anyway, I think there’s a difference in having an ambition as having some driving force behind your actions, which is necessary (I want to have blue walls, so I go and paint them blue) and the character trait that is referred to as being ambitious. No-one gets called ambitious just for wanting to have blue walls, even though it technically is an ambition. Someone who wants to be famous can be called ambitious, though.

    I think with time I’m becoming more and more self-confident and the need for other people to confirm my own value is therefore diminishing (although it’s not completely gone). I think the fame ego boost is a lot about that - being told that you’re valued.

    I can relate to the need of being recognised for the good job you’ve done. And to the desire for quasi-immortality - the knowledge of one’s own mortality is such a hard thing to live with.


  • I understand the wish for fame, because I did feel it around the time when I was like 13 or something. Then I took a look at the way of life the really famous people lead and I realized I wouldn’t want that. I love the freedom of anonymity way too much. When it comes to ambitions, I always wanted to understand the world as much as I could. That also lead me to natural sciences. I get a lot of fulfillment from learning things. So I guess I’m not really success oriented, although it’s a nice thing, but I get a lot of kick out of getting new information and connecting it in my head, that’s what I love. And that’s not very fame related, right? I live a comfy life and I do what I love, so suddenly becoming famous and losing it all looks like a nightmare to me.